Light in the darkness... Since Chanukah I've been thinking deeply about that concept, and what it means in my own life..
Today I listened to a broadcast by Rabbi Akiva Tatz, and he said something so powerful about the dark side, and how it successfully holds us back from shining as the distinct light each of us is meant to be.
Rabbi Tatz talks about the condition of being "busy in the heart." That hit home for me, for sure.
Here's Rabbi Tatz' commentary:
"The evil inclination's strategy is to burden you with work, constantly, on your heart.
"Your heart is constantly burdened.
"By keeping you busy, you are distracted from purposefulness and mindfulness.
"When you're too busy all the time, you don't have time for considering.
"It's a new dimension - "busy in the heart."
The strategy of the dark side is to keep you occupied, to keep the heart occupied with constant work."
Yipes... I have been consumed with the need to be busy, to remain occupied and to appear productive throughout my life. Today I am standing back and looking at my habit, and my attachment to being busy.
Suddenly, I feel as though I've been tricked all these years.
And the more diligently I study and pursue Jewish learning, in some ways I am even more susceptible to the trick of the dark side, luring me to study more, do more, be more. I never feel as though I'm doing enough. Never, ever.
That's the dark side distracting me... I finally get it now.
What a relief!